A Blossoming Journey

Kasie, Our social worker and I meeting baby chickens
for the first time.

When I first came to stay with the Ness's for foster care, It was culture shock to me. I was used to listening to whatever I wanted, Watching whatever I wanted and doing whatever I wanted to a degree. At the Ness's house they only listened to christian music, watched specific shows, and had rules. It was very hard for me to adapt at first. Thankfully they were very understanding and worked very hard to help me and my siblings move out of some of our old habits and understand why they had the rules they had.I learned to love christian music. I was learning healthy boundaries and rules. I was so excited to be in a new family. I was always excited for church on Sundays even though I didn't understand it or what it meant, for me it was a new experience for us. I loved getting to  dress-up. I loved the little things we did together. One memory that vividly sticks out in my mind was the longing to be "loved" again. I was loved by my grandparents but most of the time they were buying my love by getting me things that I wanted. It never satisfied the deep, deep yearning for true love. I had no idea how to express it, I never new what true unconditional love was like. Yes, my birth parents loved me but it wasn't genuine love. Love involves sacrifice, time, patience and work. While I was in foster care with the Ness's I wondered why they were so different. They were so caring and loving. They had boundaries and were stern when they needed to be. I began to feel somewhat loved by them. It took me a long time to totally open up because I bottled in so much hurt and anger. I remember before I even came to live with the Ness's I always asked to call her mommy. She told us that we needed to wait for the social worker to say that it was ok. I was so blessed to go to my grandparents for a year of foster care then to a christian family. I really see so clearly know that God has his hand on my life and that he always has. I know he has plans for my life. I just pray that I will be open to follow God wherever he leads me and not hold back. I want to be his servant because of what he has done in my life. I don't know where my life would be without him. He has worked miraculously in my heart and is constantly renewing my mind and molding me to be more like him everyday, and for that I am very thankful.
The summer before I came to Faith Baptist  
                                 

 

One day when I was just messing around

My Mom, Ashton, and Chad. I was learning to use the camera.

 

Jeremiah 29:11

" For I know the plans I have for you declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, Plans to give you a hope and a future".