Beautiful Transformation

This past Monday our family celebrated five years of adoption. Looking back five years ago at all my insecurities and fears. God has brought me a long way. I was so paralyzed by fear that I was scared to walk through my house in broad daylight. I cared so much about what people thought about me Gods truth and how He saw me. Anxiously I waited by the phone for my birth parents to call me. I still longed for their acceptance and love. I tried so hard to excuse their behavior and hope for the best, that they would get better. Five years later at age seventeen I am learning that God has not given me a spirit of fear so I am able to walk in freedom. Insecurities hold me bondage but God breaks the chains. He says I am beautiful, a diamond being refined. Worry and anxiety is not trusting God. It is basically say that what I am feeling is more important than trusting Him. God already knows what will happen in every situation. I am learning to stand on my own two feet and on the word of God despite what the world is doing. God has done a tremendous transformation in my heart through out these past five years. If I was not adopted then who knows where I would be! All because two people obeyed the calling God placed on their life, I have freedom, peace and an overwhelming joy that I can not contain and I am so grateful for what God has done and is doing in my life.